Feeling a little down today. Down and downhearted. Sometimes, you realise that the friendship someone is giving can never be the friendship you want it to be. And a friendship like that will just keep on pulling you down and causing pain unless you change your wishes or turn your back on it and let go. The former is impossible to do, which leaves the latter. I don't really believe in the concept of friendship for life anyway. There are different levels of friendship, but when you are caught inbetween those levels, neither moving closer or moving further apart from someone, it is just far too uncomfortable and futile. You want certain elements of friendship that they aren't willing to give, you either just accept that and be happy for what you have or you move on. The former just doesn't work for me.
Anyway, everyone has long ago posted their first entry, and here I am at almost 7.30pm here, just getting started. I really should be doing some work, but I am still sleep ridden...and worse still, can't think of anything else to say! Grr.